I am Irina. I am 38 and I live in Yalta, in the Crimea. People
who do not live in this land of plenty, a precious pearl of Ukraine
(which, in my opinion, was not received by this country in an honest
way) may ask an appropriate question"What else does she need
to be happy?" The sea, palm trees, nearly eternal summer.. Really.
But I would
like to join a marriage agency despite my age and dimension. I am
168 cm tall and my weight is 75 kg. But recalling some famous ladies
who are really huge and tall like policemen, I still hope to cut a
window into Europe, America or New Zealand or at least to find one
with the help of the Internet and to find myself in above mentioned
places in a certain way.
The wonderful
climate of the Black Sea Coast can help to heal any diseases, but
even in this paradise it takes my soul long to recover, it is tough
and painful. I have been a widow for 5 years. Work, work, work, home.
I am a lawyer after graduating from the Academy of Law. Only my job
and my still very young daughter (she is 11) helped me survive.
I am a very
devoted person, a"one-man" woman. So I recovered with a
great difficulty. An unexpected loss of a close man is a little death
of soul, which is difficult to reanimate. May be it can be compared
to falling out of a cruise ship at night when you do not have time
to realize that everything, your life, your destiny is melting away
in the darkness. It happens so suddenly, so unexpectedly that it may
seem a nightmare, something unreal. Your effort and a strong desire
seem to be enough to turn everything back. But it is only an illusion,
short and the last. And then everything becomes so clear, you feel
desperate and sorrowful, and then - the end. These feelings are so
familiar to me, I was onboard a sinking ship. And when you are on
the firm ground, you feel the same but it is longer and more painful,
and it does not always cause physical death. But a part of you soul
where love used to live is dead. And it stays in your memory like
a bullet in a tree - deep and for ever.
I am inferior
to young, pretty, long-legged models in my appearance, they have a
chance to be chosen at once and to leave home for some new strange
country. But the distance between us is not really big. They say that
youth is a shortcoming which soon disappears. But a woman in her late
thirties or forties has lots of merits of a different level. And we
can argue which are more valuable. Such a woman knows the taste of
life, she can appreciate kind attitude of people, she does not only
take but can give, she is devoted and sympathetic, she has life experience
and a wise heart, she can run the house thriftily, she can be a decent
half for an educated (and very busy) man, she can give her husband
a delicate and sensual sex, even if he is not a volcano any more.
And the main merit - she can forgive. It is a the greatest gift of
a real woman. As understanding comes with forgiving. You just should
not try to change people, it is impossible. You should look for spiritually
close people and try to keep them. Unfortunately, we do not understand
it when we are young and understanding comes with the time, becoming
a part of woman’s life experience.
Why are
so many educated, attractive, still young ladies willing to leave
for distant strange countries abandoning everything dear and familiar
in search of their happiness? For sample, I do not have time to meet
somebody somewhere, as I have to work a lot not to die of famine in
Ukraine. If you do not have a well-off husband and work as a lawyer
, only your brain, tongue and knowledge can provide you with what
you need. I am constantly learning not to loose my qualification.
On the whole, men in Ukraine are degenerating. They drink, can not
make both ends meet, do not want to learn and are too lazy to work
properly. And if they find out that a woman can earn the living they
are ready to become home slaves to be given a plate of soup, as they
either can not or do not want to realize themselves.
I do not
feel sorry for people who could not find their place in life due to
being lazy and inert. Though all social processes in Ukraine are very
painful now. People are surrounded by pseudo-values and pseudo-culture.
And the poorer the people are the more they forget of their spiritual
life, they have to worry about food to eat and have neither time nor
energy to think about spiritual life and their inner world. Everything
mentioned above can be clearly seen in Yalta, because of the size
of the town and the contrasts: it is a mini Los Angeles in summer
when the season is in the full swing and in winter it is abandoned
and quiet. And such men predominate in Yalta.
"Princes
are few and everybody can not have one" a song says. It is right
and I do not feel like picking somebody up in the street. Some people
can blame me for it, but it is my choice and everybody can choose
what to do with his own life. We will account for everything in front
of the God. Omar Hayam said"It is better to stay hungry than
to eat anything, it is better to stay alone than to live with anybody
you do not care for". I believe we should keep to this principle.
On the whole
I am a very cheerful, easygoing person, very optimistic and often
inclined to idealizing both my friends and opponents. Everybody seems
to deserve respect. Living is easier this way, you have less wrinkles
and bad mood. I am interested in poetry, I write poems and prose.
I am good at painting watercolors. I love classical and folk music.
And church music is especially important in my life. In my free time
I sing in the cathedral in Yalta.
I respect
cooking and enjoy surprising people with some exotic dishes. I perfectly
know Jewish, Ukrainian, Uzbek and of course Russian cuisine. Like
everybody else living near the sea I am good at swimming and diving,
I spend a lot of time in the water and enjoy underwater swimming.
That is probably because my star sign is Pisces (3 March). But now
I am afraid of cruises.
I think
I feel good and bad people, their mood, though you can not enter their
inner world, their soul and thoughts - it is like a looking-glass
world. And the world of a person from a different country is a different
Universe, I realize it and I am very serious about it. I am studying
English now.
At the moment
I am a lawyer at the municipality and"feeling people" helps
me a lot in my work with clients and communication with colleagues.
I hope I will need it in the future.
I dream
to meet a man, of similar or much higher intellect, to respect him,
to be proud of him and to love him. I dream to meet a man desperately
looking for warmth and tenderness, understanding without words and
support. He should dream of having a strong nice family, based on
love, mutual care, faithfulness, tenderness, heart passion and sensuality.
Having perfect for my age health I hope to give my husband a child
if he can have one. Leading healthy life I do not smoke, I am active
and sometimes allow myself one glass of light wine. So I would not
like my partner to drink or smoke.
I am absolutely
sure that you can not sit around twiddling your thumbs even if you
have family, love and respect. Any relationship is a constant work,
you should build it up, take care of it. There is a unique flower
called"capricious". If there is a row in the family and
anybody raises the voice its leaves fall down. Love is like this flower:
it dies away. Body, face, flat, love, family, country need care and
attention. I wish everybody understood that. I can not change this
world and people living in it and I have to work at myself…
If all above does
make sense to you, please write me in English.
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