My story may seem a bit different from letters written
by other ladies, but my story is my world and my photo is me (you
should be a great artist to take a photo of a lady with irregular
features and older than 40). I do not expect anything great, as I
am attracted by the person as he is, and not by his money. It is rare
in Russia and it may be rare in the West as well.
My name is Lyudmila. I am from Orel, Russia.
I am 168 cm tall and my weight is 56 kg. I am 54 years old. I was
born on October 17th
1947. So many years are behind me. What was there? I was born into
a family where nobody talked about"duty", but this word was the basis
for everything. I am an engineer by profession, I graduated from Technical
University. Then because of my mother’s grave disease I had a part-time
job as a librarian and after finishing college (by correspondence)
I became a professional librarian. At the beginning of the perestroika
I went to study again and I started working as a chief accountant.
What am I like? It is very difficult to describe myself.
I used to read a lot, mostly serious classical books. I used to love
drama, opera, ballet, classical music, real art and painting. I have
studied all ancient Greek literature. I love poems by Akhmatova, as
stranger’s life with its pains, losses and tragedies helps me to live.
But now the magic power of art stopped being strong and life is becoming
more important for me.
Chinese people can wish to their enemy to live in
the epoch of changes. That is what we are having now in Russia. But
when wandering about the city and looking at young people and children
or just walking at the market place you see that the desire to live
is winning. Young people are laughing and embracing each other and
their future is wonderful and full of life. They remind me the words
of one American science-fiction writer:"The end never comes and it
can not come, even if the Doomsday comes." Human spirit is always
moving upwards and the truth always wins, though it often can not
be seen in everyday life. If you look attentively, you can find many
talented people around. You open a magazine and find simple words
about life, love, about encounters with cruelty, meanness and envy.
You turn on the radio and hear beautiful songs about some days of
our life, its troubles, joys and sorrows. You meet a friend of your
school days and see that she is not interested any more in computers
and now she is fond of embroidery and has her exhibition. Of course,
it will not become classical work of our century, but it can influence
your soul. Because everything, which is done with love, will find
response in other person’s soul.
Before 1990 religion was almost prohibited in my country
and the word"God" was not heard in my family, so I was baptized when
I was 27. I have read a lot of books about religion and sang in church
choir for 10 years. In my opinion, the faith helps a person to understand
the sense of life, though I know a lot of people, who live according
to their moral duties being atheistic.
My parents died and I have no children. People say
that when a person is born, his soul is divided into two parts and
both the man and the woman feel lonely until they find each other.
May be, you are lonely too, you have lost a half of your soul and
you will answer me and we will find each other even by correspondence.
Is not it enough?
And love and marriage? You need to be together, to
look attentively at the person by your side, to believe him, but life
is very complicated and unpredictable, and it has so many plots.
Living is so interesting. You need your photo and
the photographer happens to be a philosopher without reading many
books and higher education. And when you ask him"What has made you?"
he answers"My life and my experience, I have a lot behind my shoulders."
And even care for his kids can not make him ask you for much money,
though other photographers ask for more.
What am I like? My strengths and weaknesses? Life
can not be limited by the words, which we write on a sheet of paper...
I have forgotten my English, but I can translate using
a dictionary.
This
lady is no longer available.
